1 But I was, what is called, PUTTING IT ON, to save appearances, though the attack was a genuine one.
2 She understood from all this what a woman understands first of all, if she feels genuine love, that is, that I was myself unhappy.
3 I, for instance, genuinely despised my official work and did not openly abuse it simply because I was in it myself and got a salary for it.
4 I might even be genuinely touched, though probably I should grind my teeth at myself afterwards and lie awake at night with shame for months after.
5 I don't recall the words now, but I remember well that through the high-flown phrases there was apparent a genuine feeling, which cannot be feigned.
6 At the same time I was genuinely touched and penitent, I used to shed tears and, of course, deceived myself, though I was not acting in the least and there was a sick feeling in my heart at the time.
7 You boast of consciousness, but you are not sure of your ground, for though your mind works, yet your heart is darkened and corrupt, and you cannot have a full, genuine consciousness without a pure heart.
8 The poor girl was keeping that student's letter as a precious treasure, and had run to fetch it, her only treasure, because she did not want me to go away without knowing that she, too, was honestly and genuinely loved; that she, too, was addressed respectfully.